Humans.. Pt2

Im guessing it was already figured out that I would come back with more.
And here I am.
So......I sat on the train and I observed. I can't seem to shake how
many people I see who look miserable, evil, snotty, and pretty much like
plain jerks. I don't see happy, and nice looking people, and I never
seem to get a "good" vibe around most people on the train. I wonder if
it's because they don't want to be on the train, or is it that people
have become more evil over time?... hmmmm
I ponder...
As the world sinks, so does it's inhabitants. I feel sorry for the
people who walk around with filthy looks on their faces, and thoughts so
evil, that even they themselves cannot bear to speak them aloud. I feel
sorry for the bumbs who have the nerve to sit and ask for money. I'm
broke as hell trying to bust my ass for some cash, and I have to get
asked for it as I push myself to my next destination? Why? Why not get
up and work for your own dam money instead of asking for other people's
hard earned cash?... It's horrible.
I guess you could say im venting. Sorry. Im just thinking, and those
things bug me with everyday life. I wonder how I would feel if I lived
in Italy, or Ireland. Sometimes I wish I could just leave it all, and
explore the Earth that was given to me. The chance to roam free, and
travel all over the world. There are beautiful places beyond this
lonesome place I sit in right now, and I want to see those places up
close. Dreams can and should be reality. But you know what holds some
people back? Other people... Plain and simple. Other people are the
reason why some people give up on their dreams. People forget about what
they want and they focus on what someone else wants.. Forgetting, that
now that other person has all of their desires, while your sitting there
miserable, wondering where your life went. I am young, I have my whole
life ahead of me. I can't and won't let people take away what my soul
strives for. No one should. Believe in yourself, and I know it will push
you along more than if you didn't.
I guess I do over-think a lot, but I have high hopes for my future. I
hope God directs me there.

God Bless Everyone.
Have a good evening.

I have to get back to reading my 7th book of the Sookie Stackhouse
Novels... :-)

-Sammy
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Food Food Food

I love food. I am obsessed with food. I am not overweight or anything, I
am a regular 5'7 135 lb chick.... but I really do have a passion for the
tastes of food. I love cheese especially. Who doesn't? I think cheese
is amazing because you could use cheese in dinner or dessert, so cheese
wins...

Food is the best thing on earth after water, obviously. I think there is
no better thirst quencher than water. Its the purest, cleanest,
healthiest thing to drink, besides 100% juice. I love to cook. If I
didn't love writing and making music as much as I do, my ass would be in
culinary school, because I love working with food. I want to open my own
restaurant one day too. A place where all my close friends and family
can come eat if they want or have to.

So my point is.. I love FOOD. Its great!

Cheese, Pizza, Spaghetti, Chicken, Mac n cheese, steak, sesame jack
Daniel's chicken strips, cheesecake, crab cakes & shrimp (although im
allergic, they r freaking good!) mixed greens, olives, avocado,
cucumbers, feta cheese, and balsamic vinegar. papaya, strawberries,
apples (red delicious), grapes, oranges, pineapples, kix cereal, turkey,
rice and beans, mashed taters lol, chocolate corn, string beans, snow
peas, carrots, potatoes, sweet potatoes, milk, yogurt, hummus, triscuts,
cake, sushi, curry, roti, lobster tails (the dessert), cannoli's,
scones, ahhhh!!! moreee! cheeseburger, corn dogs, cheese fries,
smoothies, fried fish, fried chicken, hush puppies, potato salad, chop
bbq, candied yams, corn muffins, cabbage, collard greens,
yummmm.....caramel cake, oooo and..chicken pad thai, fried vegetable
dumplings dipped in peanut sauce, bbq spare ribs, rigatoni ala vodka
with mushrooms, garlic bread, brownies, cold stone ice cream, Kayla's
meatballs, pork chops with apple sauce, pop tarts toasted with butter,
dunkin' donuts blueberry bagels...and im done for today

well those are just a few types of foods that are awesome 2 me..

oh yea... and my very favorite....tru blood O+

lateR!

Take Care Everyone!! and Eat Well!

Sammy Sam
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Blazed Quickie

t'was the night before tuesday when she sat by the shades. There were
thoughts of pure wonder running laps in her brain. She smoked, and she
thought, about glorious days. And took a look at the stars, while she
inhaled the haze. It fell upon her so quickly, and she became lost in
her mind. There was a puzzle piece missing and it wasn't easy to find.
So, she smoked and she thought, and she looked at the sky. She figured
maybe her thoughts were merely a product of "high".

And maybe she isn't sadly lost in her soul. If she never questioned
herself, she just wouldn't know. What life will become, with every walk
through a door. Because, the world gets thrown at you hard when you're
already down on the floor. But you have to pick yourself up, and take
what's there to be taken. Build on from the bottom, there is no need for
breakage. And thats what she thought, as she rolled another one up.
Something deep in a sense, yet easily common amongst.

She smoked and she pondered during that hot windless night. And figured
life was worth putting her thoughts through a fight.

I think.

-sAm G*
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Humans.. Pt. 1

It's been a little while since I've written in my online journal. I have
been busy writing music. Music is something to be cherished, but that
isn't my topic for the hour..

What I would like to touch base on today, is the human race. I have
observed, and observed, and, well, observed. And through my careful
observations, I have noticed how twisted human beings really are.
There's so many reasons why I would love to isolate myself from this
chaotic species. I want to start off with ( I know I shouldnt) but,
religion. All I am going to say is, I am what I am, and whatever else
anyone is, is their business. I can't stand people who criticize others
because of what they believe. Since when did it become anyone's
responsibility to dictate how others choose to live their lives? THEIR
LIFE. Something none of us treasure completely, to the fullest extent.
But why would we? We are human, and human beings live in risk, in greed,
and every other way possible.
In this age that we live in, there are numerous problems being
overlooked. Money, unfortunatly is the # 1 priority. I thought the earth
would be. What happened to fresh food, clean air, non-damaged
atmosphere, trading instead of money, long life, dedication to
relationships and family, and real love. What happened to that? Instead,
we have money hungry thieves looking for the next mind fuck to lay on
the human race, that will slowly eat away at our bodies and confused
souls.. Be stronger then that. Observe. The Earth is dieing, and when
the Earth dies, so do we. We need to cherish what we have, instead of
stupidly destroying it with carelessness and greed. Most humans will
never take a second to feel what's going on.
So anyway... Medicine.. People! Realize that medicine is killing you!
If your not living with a serious illness, then you shouldn't be feeding
yourself bullshit pills. Im pretty sure a lot of people won't trust a
complete stranger if they walked up to you in the middle of the block
and simply asked to talk, or even hold your hand. Nooooo, never, they
may be psycho...But you'll trust a handful of doctors you don't know, to
feed you pills that can kill you 20 years from now.. Think about that.
You don't know any of them.. They are strangers, and your life is worth
more than a pill, that you most likely don't really need.
Ok ok, so basically I let off just a little of what I think about... I
will come back with round two.. later
Goodnight Folks...and Take Care
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The Thunder

Questions have surfaced in my mind ever since the thunder has became
louder. It has been crashing like a volcano erupting in NY for the past
two days. It's very unsettling because I fear there is more to this loud
thunder then what people think. I had a weird vibe when it started
raining the other day. I think there is something wrong with the earth,
Maybe the climate change is doing this. Maybe not. We have to come to
the realization that nothing is permanent, everything changes.. Us
humans have destroyed this earth beyond belief.. Cars, Technology,
pollution..etc... Think about. There are things we don't even know
about. And what's up with 2012??? Soo many beliefs, so many different
perspectives...But what do they al lead to? What has mankind been saying
since the beginning? These are questions that have risen in my mind, due
to the thunder
*until next time.....*

God bless everyone..
...
Sammy Sam.
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A Poem I Wrote

This is a poem I just happened to write one day called "It Doesn't
Matter" ... Hope you all like it.

"It Doesn't Matter"

I search within myself to find this inner strength
I feel the tears asking to be free
Yet, I must refrain.
It doesn't matter,
this is me.

I am a friend that won't betray.
I can't change the way I feel
Like a soul that is a stray
but it doesn't matter,
this is me

Misery has consumed the light I used to see
This is where I stand.
I feel the love, but the pain is overwhelming
but it doesn't matter,
this is me

Have you ever really seen me?
I'm here, l'm hurting
I want to make it
I want to leave you in your sorrow
but it doesn't matter
Does it?

It never mattered.
It's easy for you not to see...
I don't believe I've failed you
I tried so hard
just to be...

It doesn't matter to you...
.....but it matters to me

-I wrote this off of a vibe I felt one day....

*Written By,
Sammy*
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Guess what Beach I am on!!

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Video blog

Hey everyone,
Every week I will be posting a video blog on a number of topics.. Im
going to show you guys more of my music, and let you listen to me live
spit my lyrics, wether it be raps, or poems... im also going to talk
about a bunch of different things, and introduce some hot up and coming
artists I've been happy to work with. So stay tuned, because I assure
you, you'll be interested in what I will be talking about ;-) ....
Take Care everyone...
*Keep the Real Music Alive*...
Sammy Sam... :-)
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intro blog vid

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Michael Jackson

First of all, I would like to say God Bless his famliy, and God bless
his soul please.... It hurts me soo much that I never got the chance to
meet such a soul.. It hurts that God took away someone who was there for
the good. Who wasn't a bad person, with hate, and greed in his soul.
Michael Joseph is also my fathers name. Strange coincidence, but true.
And deep inside my heart, I feel the pain. My first music video I ever
watched was "Thriller" ....I was soo scared everytime I watched it, and
my mother had the video recorded on VHS so I watched it everyday with my
two sisters. We tried to make up dances like him, and I also used a clip
from Thriller in a school play when I was young. Michael Jackson touched
me in ways that I myself don't know, because I didn't know it would hurt
this bad but it does.. The way Michael Jordan touches athletes, and the
way someone like Densel Washington, or Will Smith, or Robert Deniro, or
touches Actors, is the way Michael Jackson touched me as a rapper, a
writer, a performer, and an artist.
I was born in 1988, and from 1988 until 2009, all I know from growing up
is hearing Michael's oldies in my living room, and his present in my
mothers car. I must have musical inspiration from him. He must have
placed a mark on me as a performer, and through his music, because it
hurts me. It brings me to tears, for a person I only knew through his
songs.... But songs is what I am. And I know communication through
music. And Michael communicated to me through his music. I just wish I
could have told him how he impacted my life as a child. Because he
truley did. I wish I could have made it in the industry earlier, and
gotten the chance to show him my songs, ask his advice, tell him about
my life. Because I know he would have cared... God please take care of
Michael Jackson. Although I never met this caring soul, he's been in my
heart, since the first time I watched Thriller, and he'll never
leave.... I love you Michael Jackson, I wish you could have stayed
longer... It wasn't your time...
Save the Music... Save the World.
God Bles everyone... Love always.
Sammy Sam ... *tears*
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Another set of thoughts

So im blogging again, on what seems to be my online journal. Its tough
out there in the world. You have to always remember one thing..What
makes you happy? I learned to stay true to myself, even if it means a
struggle. Im looking back at how my parents did things, and I was able
to find numerous faults. I see the things I would do differently if I
was in their position. Sometimes I wish I lived anothers young adults
life, but most of the time I am happy to be me, and learn the way I do.
it hurts sometimes, when you see other people your age having more
oppourtunities than you, but hope is always there. I was never a jealous
person. I am happy for everyone who has those great oppourtunities... I
know mine are there, I just have to make them myself, which I do little
by little everyday. I guess hope is all anyone can have. Hope, Prayer,
and Belief....Believe in yourself... Any parents who read this....be
there for your children, when they fall, your their hope. Don't ever
forget it.
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Life

So basically today I am relaxing... collecting my thoughts (as usual)
and releasing them on paper..(or shall I say internet paper). lol..
Within the last month, I changed my life around a lot. I've decided to
leave the job I had for two years, because I was sick and tired of
sitting behind a desk wasting my days away, for other people. I am
creative and im an artist. I write music, poems, I perform and I want to
write novels one day.. I chose myself over a job that just wasn't me..I
believe that this change isn't a bump in the road, but more of a boost
ahead in my road to success. I believe that no body should do something
they don't want to do, because in this life we have to cherish
everyday..we have to do what makes us happy. I never want to limit
myself to anything for anyone. I believe I was put here to do what I
love..and I will. its just a matter of believing in youself...I do and I
always will.
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